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the bet - Or such a thing called Love (15/20) 
30th-Jul-2009 12:35 pm
green ryo-chan
Title: The bet - or such a thing called love
Chapter: [15/20]
Pairing: RyoTego/TegoPi
Genre: romance, drama
Rating: PG-13 (i think...?)
Summary: Ryo-chan and Yamapi bet that one of them will win Tegoshi's heart, both confident that they will win. So a rancorous fight begins, in which both use even the worst methods to better each other, not knowing, that Tegoshi, who stands between them, slowly sinks into despair because of his confused heart....
Disclaimer: Nothing of this like persons, names, places, buildings etc. belongs to me, except the storyline and the weird dialogues

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They met up at the station at 9pm. Ryo and Massu where first, after a while Koyama and Shige arrived. Yamapi and Shige came last. They waitet outside for the two of them and as soon as Tegoshi noticed Ryo, he pulled his hand out of Yamapi’s and stepped a bit away from him. With a guilty conscience he didn’t dare to look into Ryo’s eyes as they greeted each other. He didn’t even know whether Ryo had seen their hands intertwined or not. As well as he didn’t know why he felt so guilty. I did nothing wrong, he tried to justify himself, but it didn’t work as he found himself being surrounded by Ryo and Yamapi at each of his sides again.

His heartbeat fastened as they walked to a near restaurant, headed in and where led to their seats. Of course he had to sit down between Yamapi and Ryo again. Yabai…They’re not making it any easier for me this way at all! Tegoshi thought. He felt as if his current position resembled the condition of his heart. Torn up… He looked up at Yamapi to his right side, who was giving him this warm, calm and serious look. And then he turned his head to Ryo at his left, who was smiling at him with his far too cute big-brother-smile. Then he looked down at the menu on the table in front of him. He sighed. It feels wrong to like both of them. It’s not fair. If Ryo would’ve not been so caring and straightforward it would’ve been so easy. I’ve loved Yamapi for so long now. I want him to hold me. He is so steady and grown-up. But Ryo-chan…I feel good when I’m with him. He makes me smile. He cares for me. He’s watching me and it makes me happy that he can’t take his eyes off me. He’s there for me when I need him. Damn…I know I have to decide…but it would hurt one of them. I don’t want to make them sad. I don’t want to lose neither of them…

“Yu-chan, what’s wrong?”

“Eh?” Tegoshi looked up. Everybody was staring at him. He hadn’t noticed Ryo had spoken to him.

“Sorry, I’ve dreamt. What did you say?”

“I’ve asked whether you’ve already decided on what to eat.” Ryo said and the aware, worrying look in his eyes was not unseen by Yamapi. He hated the way Ryo was always watching Tegoshi. It was like he was observing him the whole time, every step, every movement, every expression – non-stop. It was like Ryo feared that Tegoshi might run away. And it made Yamapi so mad to see Ryo’s eyes stuck to Tegoshi.

“Ehm…I’m taking the same like you.” Tegoshi forced a smile full of wobbliness. He knew Ryo noticed everything he did and Yamapi sensed every change in his mood. It was tiring to be on guard so much in order to not worry either of them or to prevent awkward questions or gazes. Oh please...he thought annoyed. Can’t they stop it at least for a single moment? It was okay to be with just one of them. He enjoyed the time he spent with either Yamapi or Ryo. But to be with both was just horrible.

Tegoshi didn’t get the slightest bit of the conversation that started between the other members immediately after they’d ordered. He used the time to rest inside his head and to calm down his thoughts. He neither noticed that Yamapi kind of boasted with the fact that Tegoshi bought the cotton candy for him, nor did he sensed the gazes from Ryo which rested on him the whole time. He didn’t even move his eyes away from Tegoshi when the waiter served them their food. Ryo didn’t mean to give Tegoshi a creepy feeling. He just wanted Tegoshi to look at him for at least a second, so that Ryo could see whether he was alright or not. But Tegoshi never once looked up the whole night. Not even a single time he answered to a question Ryo asked. Ryo’s only comfort was that he didn’t react to Yamapi either.

So when they got back to the hotel Ryo and Tegoshi went off alone to their room in silence. Ryo didn’t know what to say and he had the suspicion that Tegoshi wouldn’t answer anyway. When they arrived in their room Tegoshi immediately went into the bath-room, locked the door and a second later Ryo heard the sound of the shower. With a sad sigh he sat down at the bet and waited in impatience. Ten minutes later Tegoshi came out. He saw Ryo sitting there, stopped and then quickly looked away when their eyes met. That was too much for Ryo. It was too obvious. “Oy, don’t ignore me!” he said and his voice was much harsher than he’d intended it to be. Tegoshi answered with the same tone: “How could I? You’re observing me non-stop! I would welcome it if I could ignore you.”

Ryo bit his lip. Tegoshi’s hurtful remark hit home. He said nothing. Tegoshi seemed to spot that he’d said something wrong. So he finally looked at Ryo after all and saw him with sunken shoulders and a heartbreaking expression on his face. Tegoshi fought with himself, but then he said: “Gomen ne, Ryo-chan…I didn’t mean it…” Ryo didn’t react. With four steps Tegoshi was by his side and knelt down in front of him. That way Ryo was forced to look at Tegoshi, whose baby-eyes made him feel even worse. “Please stop it…” he said pleadingly in a soft voice.

“Stop what?” Tegoshi wanted to know.

“Looking at me like that. It’s unfair.”


“You don’t know how cute and innocent you are.” Ryo groaned and let his face fall down into his hands. His voice was as husky as always, but this time it had also a hurtful, overwrought sound in it.  “But I know.” He whispered. “I know far too well. I can’t get enough of your cute face. It makes me happy to see you. It makes me realize how precious you are; how important you are to me.” He paused for moment. Tegoshi heard how he took a breath. “But recently you stopped smiling. I didn’t know this is because of me…”

“Oh Ryo! It’s not because of you!”

“Liar. You’re just saying this in order to not hurt me.”

Tegoshi said nothing and Ryo let out a bit, husky laughter. “See, I’m right. Exposed.”

“Okay…It is because of you. At least a half.” Tegoshi admitted. “It’s just that…Well…” His voice broke off.

“So, what?”

Tegoshi sighed and then looked down. “It’s so complicated…” he said quietly. How could he tell Ryo that he suspected he was in love with both, Ryo and Yamapi? It was impossible that he would tell Ryo, wasn’t it?

Ryo looked at him with his special gaze. This special gaze, which made Tegoshi’s heart go crazy, his knees weak and wobbly and his mind blank. That moment Tegoshi knew that he felt more for Ryo than he’d thought. Maybe too much. Could you be too much in love with a person when there’s already another one important to your heart? Was it possible for one person to love more than one human so much it hurts? Could you die from the pain a confused heart causes?

Tegoshi’s heart hurt so much. And his head knew it was wrong. It was wrong to have such feelings for more than one person. Stupid heart. Didn’t it know that something like this was forbidden?

Tegoshi felt the touch of some warm hands gently stroking his cheeks. Ryo’s hands.

Without noticing it tears have fallen down from Tegoshi’s chin. Carefully he laid his head into Ryo’s cupping hands. It felt good, this feeling of being comforted, although he knew he didn’t deserve it.

“Ryo…” Tegoshi whispered the name, just to know how it tasted like in that very moment. It tasted so sweet some days ago, like pure honey and he hasn’t known why. Now he knew, and it felt bittersweet. Weird how much the realization of love can change a name…He felt as if he had to cry again. He wasn’t sure whether it was okay, so he held back a big fat cratching sob in his throat, though it hurt so much even more tears would sum up in his eyes.

“Oh dear…There’s no need to.” He hear Ryo whispering back and felt even more terrible. Who was he to make Ryo worry about him so much? And the most terrible thing was that something was inside him - this egoistic not-caring part - that enjoyed it. That really enjoyed being shepherded. He was torn apart and he just used poor Ryo-chan for his own heart’s sake.  “Ryo…” Tegoshi was sobbing now anyway. “You don’t know…You don’t understand.” He sounded so desperate.

“I don’t understand what?” Ryo asked as he didn’t have a blue what was troubling Tegoshi. “Yu-chan…I don’t get it.”

But Tegoshi pushed him away and shied away from him. “I don’t deserve your gentleness.” He said with a broken voice. Even his stomach hurt when he said it. “I don’t deserve any of this. You’re too kind, too caring… I don’t deserve you, Ryo. I am not good eno-“ But Ryo cut him off by suddenly pressing his soft lips onto Tegoshi’s, whose eyes tore open in surprise.

“Why do you have such stupid thoughts?” Ryo asked in a love voice when they parted away. “I’d never say you’re not good enough for me. Why are you wearing yourself down? Is it because of Yamapi?”

Tegoshi just stared at Ryo, still paralyzed by the unexpected kiss. His lips felt so different now, he feared to have to realize they weren’t his anymore if he would just open them to speak.

“Yu-chan…” Ryo’s husky voice echoed in Tegoshi’s ear. “There’s no need to. Forget him. Forget everything about him. I wouldn’t be here four you if I wouldn’t think of you as one of the most wonderful persons I know.” Gently he stroke Tegoshi’s cold cheeks again. The tough made Tegoshi come back to talk again.

“I am not wonderful. You’re thinking wrong of me.” He whispered. With big round eyes full of sadness and fear he was staring at Ryo, who looked at him with a serious face.

“Well, even then I’m fine with it.” And he leaned down to Tegoshi again.

What am I doing?!


Chapter 15 deshita~~
so, as you can see there will be 20 chapters :3
I've already written the ending, chapter 16 and 18-20...there's still missing a big part of chap 17 though xDD
thanks as always to all those nice people who write comments and keep reading the bet and supporting me ♥
thank you so much!! ^______________^

30th-Jul-2009 11:17 am (UTC)
uwaa! lol i accidentally smacked myself out of suprise when i read the kiss part XD lol gooood fic! yosh! i will continue to support! ganbatte!
30th-Jul-2009 12:13 pm (UTC)
aaaw~ xD you're cute :3
thank you so much for commenting and reading :)
I will try to update as soon as I can ^____^
30th-Jul-2009 02:05 pm (UTC)
hehe thank you^^
no problem, i love reading your fics ^^
30th-Jul-2009 11:38 am (UTC)
30th-Jul-2009 12:14 pm (UTC)
why did I know something like this would come ? XDD
30th-Jul-2009 11:46 am (UTC)
sorry i was speechless before!
thanks for making this!
It really really made my day!!!

Hope you do well and update faster!!
*Throw candies*
30th-Jul-2009 12:15 pm (UTC)
hehe, it's okay, I really had to laugh when I found your "kyaaa" x3
I will try to update as soon as I can, with still some weeks of my summer break ahead it shouldn't be that much of a problem for me, nee~~ ;D
aaaw~ and thanks for the candies *loves candies*
30th-Jul-2009 12:28 pm (UTC)
Yay, a new chap ^^! Ur Ryochan's doki2 attack always make me squeals..(lucky tego)

(Weird how much the realization of love can change a name…)

Omigood i'm worried for some unknown reason..who's the lucky guy?? *checking the pairing fic which is written 'RyoTego/TegoPi' for the n-th times*

No,i don't wanna guess...^^;, can't wait to read the next one

30th-Jul-2009 12:41 pm (UTC)
hehe, I'm already jealous of Tesshi that he is so fondled by Ryo and Pi xDD I am jealous of my own writing xDDD

you're worried? aaaw~ don't be :3 I think I've already found a happy end for both, Pi and Ryo, so...yeah, don't worry, nee~~

I will update soon - or at least sooner than the other times xD

30th-Jul-2009 01:07 pm (UTC)
*nods* that's why on my previous comment i said i'm jelaous..hehe

gambatte finishing (though i don't wanna end, lol) this fic
30th-Jul-2009 11:04 pm (UTC)
RyoTego, RyoTego *dances*
I loved it ! I really want to read the next chapters~~ !
30th-Jul-2009 11:14 pm (UTC)
KYAAAA. Omg, it's sooo good ><
Please update soon!
31st-Jul-2009 02:25 am (UTC)
Kyaaa!!!! I love this story!

I hope he ends up with Ryo in the end <333333
31st-Jul-2009 05:31 pm (UTC)
hehe, thanks :3
I won't reveal the person he will really end up until the end, so you have to read if you wanna know ;D
and thanks for the comment ^___^
31st-Jul-2009 07:57 am (UTC)
suchh a great story so far, ne~

i really hope it ends up TegoPi...<3

please update soon!^^
31st-Jul-2009 05:30 pm (UTC)
aaw~ thanks :)

maybe it will - okay, I know with whom Tesshi will end up, but it will stay secret until the end ;D
so please keep reading, ne~ :3
31st-Jul-2009 05:33 pm (UTC)
aw, i love Tego-nyan~~ <33

please let him have a happy ending, ne~

i'm so excited to read further on! :D
5th-Aug-2009 11:42 pm (UTC)
I love this fiction, I can wait to see what happens!!!
Great work!
1st-Feb-2010 03:06 pm (UTC)
yay! finally:3
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